just because

One of my friends explained to me how they enjoyed reading my blog because “there’s so much hate”. Blah, that’s the complete opposite of what I was going for. So I suppose I’ll switch it up and direct it to the philosophical aspect that I love to pour out the most. I actually wrote this post about 3 weeks ago, but debated if it was worthy of posting. I tried to find interesting media drama, interesting events or funny conversations..but no matter what i started typing about..it always came back to me wanting to write about one thing. [I know, not at all exciting, so I guess there’s so warning]

So…I’ve created a personal record of not going back to san diego for about 5 weeks, partly because of other obligations up in Irvine…and also partly by choice. With the start of the new SPOP season, the ending of the 07-08 mcia team, volunteering at an after school program, working and pushing to work out often… it’s been somewhat chaotic, but the good kind of chaos that I seem to thrive off of. I feel refreshed and focused. I feel productive and spending my time in a positive way. And positivity is definitely my new focus. The question of “what’s my purpose in life” is constantly in the back of my mind, behind all the busy schedules. Like why am I drowning in my calendar? Why have I stopped drinking? What should I be doing with the time I have at UCI? What the heck am I gonna do after I graduate? Am I getting involved in the right things? How do I know what's right?

Love for the people around you, love for what you do, love of God’s blessings on your life. People need to find that passion that drives them to greatness, away from the excessive or unnecessary things that just make life bland. I think that the happiest people find the beauty in life despite the hardships and challenges and acknowledge the positives. They create one ultimate good even when a thousand bads are weighing them down. I know, I know, super-cliche, super-sappy statements, but really.

And while I don’t intend to preach about my renewed faith, I think what it all comes down to…regardless of religion, background, ambitions, etc…is really about the people in your life. I just finished reading a book for my ethics class [“Season of Life”, go read it!]. It’s all about being “others-centered”, putting yourself behind your loved ones, not with intentional goals to impact their life, but just the small things you may do that really hits 'em. The way my own college life has been…let’s just say I have the next 3 weeks planned out by the hour [I know, pathetic]. I’m pushing to complete and accomplish all these things. I’ve been overwhelmed by the lack of spontaneity and time for me…but then, I have to return to the fact that it’s not about me. SPOP is for these anxious incoming freshmen and my fellow staffers…volunteering in Santa Ana is for those kids who need role models…working is for this awesome kid to succeed in school…going to practices is to hopefully contribute to the MCIA family…skipping out on sleep late at nights is for the beloved bondage with the roomies. I don’t mean to make this sound self-glorifying [which is actually the reason why I was debating to post this], but just an update on where my life stands. I know it’s not as exciting as the media topics that I often love to throw out, but whatevs.


“when you have a cause, it should never be about trying to measure the so-called impact of what you are doing…Because once you start doing that, then you’re right back to the whole thing being about you, focusing on what you are accomplishing, and it’s not about you. It’s about connecting to other, being others-centered”


“And the way we measure greatness is the impact you make on other people’s lives"

and just to lighten the mood....