supplication.

Nevertheless, I am continually with you,
You hold my right hand.
You guide me with your counsel
and afterward you will receive me to your glory.

Whom have I in heaven but you?
And there is nothing on earth
that I desire beside you.

My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart
and my portion forever.

[Psalm 73:23-26]
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humble me, Lord. really break my heart for what breaks yours. continue to show me that You are sufficient above all things. i want to seek your guidance over anyone else's. grow me to desire You, to delight IN you alone, not just the gifts, but the Giver. yes, i struggle with the conflicting desires of my prideful flesh and my selfish heart, but i pray that i will learn to trust You completely. i stumble more than i want to admit, but i pray that my faith is grounded in good soil to produce good fruit, so i may please You. re-focus me to serve with humility, patience, truth and love. purify my thoughts and actions to fully re-center them on You, the one who deserves all the praise and glory for any good thing in this world. thank you for being so patient with me.

encouragement.

God does not call the equipped,

God equips the ones He calls.

200th post word jumble.

God is good. There is so much to be thankful for and so much to pray for as well. There are so many souls all over the world crying out for physical, mental, emotional, spiritual comfort. I pray that they draw close to God as He will draw close to them. Lord, I know we cannot answer why suffering coexists with such an omnipotent God, but I do know that You are a loving God of salvation that restores us even after the greatest trials. And we see that in a clear example of Christ's incredible suffering on the Cross that led to amazing, eternal rewards. I need to always remember that God is faithful and that His will is waaaaaay better than anything I could ever imagine. I can never wrap my mind around how absolutely wonderful you are. I praise you for Your mercy, your power, your kindness, your goodness: true, intimate, consistent, everlasting.

For me, I pray that He rids my anxious heart from worry and I hope pride and bitterness does not continue plague my heart. I want to passionately serve Him without becoming a meaningless routine. I pray that the Holy Spirit grants me the spiritual fruit to be a light in this dark world. I want to make everything of this world super tiny compared to the grandest of heavenly things. There should be no limit to me loving You, a God who pours out His infinite love so abundantly. Use me, mold me, Lord. Continue to transform my mind and heart to know and love you more and more. And I pray that God continues to stir in the hearts of those who are seeking and to be ever-so-evident in the lives of those who do have Christ. Lord, thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven.

trip to the concrete jungle.

snipits of my mini-vacay to the east coast.

to visit the bfriend, the brother, friendsies.

lots of walking, lots of eating, lots of laughing, lots of learning.

and lots of pictorals... here's just a few!

subway. ride fresh.time squizzle and all the lights... and tourists.central pErk.

walking, talking, dodging people.
at the MoMA with the brother and his gf.
5 pointz.

starting the new year together! ...in times square...kinda.

day trip to DC (the other windy city) to visit miss ica.how we escaped the wind chill.

detention. assisting my bro in his 4th grade class.

day trip to cafe habana with the dan davis.

check out his photography skills:

and... the last pictoral of zee trip.

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praise God for the blessings He granted us during the week! im so undeserving. God is so good for being so consistently faithful, for always providing, for rebuking us out of love, and for teaching us how to be patient in His timing. im so thankful for the people He has blessed me with, including the bfriend who i loved hangin out with in his new 'hood. im so proud of and encouraged by the courage and faith that led him to the east coast. what an absolute blessing to have a friend to laugh, eat, pray and grow with. you're awesome, love.

ciao 2010!

i have many goals for this new year. there are a bunch of things on my heart that i am still praying for. i just pray that God searches my heart and eliminates any selfish ambition and guides me in the right direction. i need to continue to seek His will for my life first & foremost and to fully trust that He will work in my heart and use me according to His perfect plan for me.

graduate from uci (finally). 2 more quarters with The Crick. run half-marathon. save money for cfbc missions trip. large bible studies. learn how to play guitar (foreal this time). finish the entire bible (finally). figure out post-college plans. more family & friends time. spread the gospel. grow in the knowledge and love of God.

and i pray that i acknowledge that all these things
will be accomplished for Christ and because of Christ.

ciao 2009!

2009 has been full of incredible blessings! i am so undeserving of the opportunities and lovely people God has blessed me with.

some highlights:

i finished up my last year dancing with MCIA (it was an amazing 4-year run). my oldest sister got married to the love her life. i turned 22 with the most wonderful birthday surprises ever. i was re-baptized!!. i moved out of 198 (sad i know). the bfriend celebrated his 23rd birthday with more surprises. lots of friendsies graudated, including my sister from nursing school. lots of birthdays, celebrations, reunions and shindigs. went through some challenges, learning to trust God more. participated in my first cfbc VBS. attended harvest crusade. celebrated 1 year with the bfriend. started the year as the Resident Advisor of Crickhollow. started training for half-marathon. read more of my Bible and grew closer to God. spent quality time with family, friends, bfriend and church family.


besides all these blessings, i cannot fail to forget the Blesser. dear God, you are soooo good to me. i still make mistakes and my flaws continue to surface, but You are so patient and so loving despite all of that. i pray that i remain faithful and trust in Your sovereignty even when these naive eyes cannot see the sliver lining. i praise You and i thank You for all these things that you have so graciously bestowed upon me and i pray that others may be grateful for the life you have given to them. i also pray that they acknowledge what else you offer them beyond this life--- the hope, peace, joy, abundant love in living a life for You because You sent your Son to die on a Cross so that we may live and enjoy these very blessings. thank You for another fabulous year and i pray that you reignite the passion to serve You, living a life worthy of You and to share the good news with those around us. to God be the glory. so see ya 2009 and hello 2010! :)

merry CHRISTmas!

And the angel said to them, "Fear not, for behold, I bring you
good news of great joy that will be for all the people.
For unto you is born this day in the city of David a

Savior, who is Christ the Lord.
And this will be a sign for you: you will find a baby
wrapped in swaddling cloths and lying in a manger."

[Luke 2:10-12]

this season is not about us. it's not about traditions and fancy gatherings. it's not about elaborate decorations or non-stop Christmas songs on the radio. it's not about buying, giving or receiving gifts. this is a season of celebration for the greatest gift ever.

this is a time to celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ! this was no ordinary birth of an ordinary baby. this was the Son of God. this was God in the flesh born into this world to fulfill the greatest feat imaginable. God, an all-powerful being, coming into this world as a vulnerable human in the most modest circumstances to two faithful, common people. Jesus Christ sent into this world as a Savior, to save all man from all sins, a free gift that we do not deserve. this is great news! because of Jesus' birth, because of his ministry throughout his life and ultimately because of his death on the cross, we have the opportunity to reap the rewards if we only believe in him and live to follow his commandments. through faith in Christ, we are offered life beyond this life. through Christ, God gives us life and sustains our life, it only makes sense that we live in complete gratitude and submission to Him. God is forgiving and patient with our mistakes. Jesus saves us from our sins, offers peace and joy in life and gives us more than anyone or anything could ever offer. no matter how horrible your past was, God can transform you and give your life meaning. and i think that is more than enough reason to turn to Him. i really hope that this season is filled with the joy from understanding the true reason for the season--- CHRISTmas, a celebration of Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior.

That's Christmas (Short Film) HD from St Helen’s Church on Vimeo.

merry CHRISTmas friends! love you all!

almost.

there is a lot happening and there is a lot still to be done.
would you please soften hearts & transform minds to know You?

Lord, i can see the work that You are doing.
dear God, help us to continue to give You all the glory.

playtime.

so crazy.

"In Heaven exists a being that decides
whether or not I take another breath.
This Holy God deserves excellence, the very best I have"

- Francis Chan, "crazy love"